Age: 30
Relationship Status: Married
Occupation: Nicu/Picu nurse
Income: 80k
Astrological Sign: Aquarius
What is the most important part of your daily routine?
Quiet, alone time has become essential to set my day off in a positive way. Between my baby and my job, I have a lot of stimulation throughout the day. The time I spend alone in my thoughts really helps me steady myself.
What is your current happiness most dependent on?
I’m working on it, but for most of my life, my happiness has been derived from what I can offer those around me. I truly get joy out of being valuable to others, which I recognize may not be the healthiest thing.
What do you wish you were less reliant on?
The approval of others. So much of what I do is based on what other people will think about me. I want so badly to be a “cool girl” who doesn’t give a fuck about what people think about her, but that is simply not me.
When do you question yourself?
Becoming a mom has made me question myself endlessly. I really expected myself to be more secure in my ability, but every decision feels so big. I also was taking in an insane amount of mom content with a hundred different opinions on one topic. I dialed that back, and it has helped a lot, but I don’t think I’ll ever stop questioning myself.
What is something that has positively impacted how you perceive your self-worth?
My job has brought such value to how I view myself. After almost every shift, I can walk out the door and feel like I have helped someone. Sometimes, I am truly saving a child’s life, and sometimes, I am the shoulder for a mom who is having the worst day of her life. I am incredibly proud of what I do.
What is something you have forgiven yourself for?
When I was in college, I was truly the worst version of myself. I was drinking too much, lying, and being a bad friend. It is ugly to say about myself, but it is the truth. I punished myself for a long time and held onto a lot of hatred towards myself. I eventually got my shit together and really distanced myself from that version of me. Looking back at that girl now, I feel sad for her. She was truly lost and sad, and I am able to forgive her.
What is something you have forgiven someone else for?
I am currently working on forgiving my older sister. She has been in the depths of addiction for fifteen years and is currently incarcerated. She is clean and working hard to change and repair our relationship. I have never held such resentment for someone before and am having difficulty letting go of it.
How do you ground/center yourself?
My girlfriends and family can always get me to a good place. They are truly the best people.
What is one thing that helped you through your most difficult time?
Antidepressants!!! I am no longer on them, but they truly saved my life.
Have you ever felt like the best version of yourself? When?
Honestly, anytime I am with my husband. We make the best team and have a way to make the most mundane things fun.
What is something you fundamentally disagree with?
Hate to get political, but the black-and-white picture that some people on the right are painting about abortion. It is inaccurate and harmful.
What is something you know for sure?
My friends and family will ALWAYS be there for me. Even on my darkest days, they will always show up! I am so damn lucky!
What are three of your non-negotiables in romantic relationships?
Honesty
Ability to talk about the hard things without it being a fight
Laughter (a lot of it)
When do you feel most comfortable in your own skin?
With my husband. He has seen me in every form. Having a baby really made me feel comfortable letting it all hang out (lol).
Have you ever been in awe of something/someone? When?
I am in awe of my coworkers often - we see the worst of the worst and make it look easy!
What is the best (physical/material) gift you have ever received?
I cannot think of a single thing. I am really just not a gift girl.
What is one thing you wish you had said ‘yes’ to in the past?
Some of the opportunities I had to travel. I was convinced that anything more than one trip a year was financially irresponsible, but it will be a long time before I will have the freedom I did when I was younger again.
What is one thing you will always say ‘no’ to in the future?
Street meat. Enough said.
What do you believe is your most attractive quality?
Physically: my body shape
Non-physical: I’m pretty funny
What/who do you want to be when you grow up?
I think I’m already there. I truly believe I have found my forever job! Now, I just want to have another baby or two.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
Even the worst day of your life is only 24 hours. Each day will come to an end, and tomorrow will be full of new opportunities.
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